So last night I was sitting around Dalaran waiting for the raid to start and chit chatting with Tart when she mentioned that her hubbie had found a new guild on their old server and was starting to do some serious Ulduar runs. I asked her where she gets that kind of info and she pointed me to WoW-Heroes.com and then informed me that I was the top geared priest on Darkspear (armory here). My initial reaction was to tell her “shaddup”, but I decided to take a look for myself.
Lo and behold, it was true, but not just the top geared priest, I was listed as the top geared healer and was third overall on the server as well. Me. Dumb ol’ Dueg. I’ll admit it, I giggled with girlish glee as my epeen got a little bigger. I tried to play it cool be all, well, I suppose that’s nice. But already that little whisper was beginning to appear. I told Tart that I was going to have to tell people now and she warned me of the chance that it might backfire. But I was so very brash and reckless back then, not wise like I am now.
So in the healer channel, I subtly start leading into the subject by saying “hm, this site wow-heroes.com has me listed as the top geared healer on the server”. Nice and subtle. This was met with the usual jealous rantings of lesser raiders, but I let it plink off of my well geared armor, unperturbed. My head was too big to hear them anyways. There was raiding afoot and <NEED A DISPENSER HERE> needed their best healer at the forefront, ready to keep the troops alive and kicking. And so began the night of Failpriest Dueg.
I had to be battle rezzed twice in two separate fights and in one of those fights I was still on the floor at the end. I died in a void zone on cat lady. I also hugged the bottom of the meters for most of the night even though I felt like my usual self. The only fight I didn’t have trouble on after Kologarn was Freya for some reason and I usually blow at that one, so very weird. And though no one brought it up again after my little act of strokage earlier, I still felt the sting of karma. Hell, even Thorim was making me look like a chump and that’s usually one of my strongest fights.
The point was quickly hammered home that no matter what kind of gear I was sporting, it meant exactly dick if I was dead on the floor for half the fight. As healers our jobs are just as much to stay alive and not die from stupid shit as they are to heal. We have to be even more raid aware and ready to move and do our jobs that the average raider because we’re more valuable. On average, there’s six of us to keep the raid alive, so every time one of us is lost, it becomes exponentially more difficult for those left to keep the raid alive.
So what does this listing represent? Well, it means I know the priorities of my class and spec and have been able to vehemently chase down gear for my class when it drops. That in turn means that I’m good at being at scheduled raids. I have the resources to be aggressive with my dkp because I’m there supporting my guild as much as possible and have been rewarded accordingly. It also means that I can put up bigger numbers now. I’ve been watching my crits creeping up into the 20k range and when all the right buffs and totems and procs are working, I get this stat screen:
But even with that working for me, I was useless last night because I spent so much time hugging the floor. How does it taste, you might ask? Like bitter ashes in my mouth, I would say. Fact is that this gear might as well have been someone else’s because that would have been a more help to the raid than it was last night.
Honestly, I’ll say that it was probably just an off night for me last night. It happens every once in a while and it’s not like I never ever die on bosses, just usually not two or three on the same boss. However, the timing of it does it make me a little suspicious of fate’s fickle fingers. Either way, I’ll simply have to buckle down and focus come the next raid in order to make sure that I spend more time on my feet. I mean, I am the top geared healer on the server after all, I might as well act like it.