Tuesday nights are Delirium’s ICC 10-man nights, which I’ve been making sure to sign up for regularly as I try to gear up to be a little better situated for 25s. So last night I log on, check the weekly. see that it’s Lord Marrowgar and then notice that there are close to thirty signatures for our ten mans tonight. Since I’m not an official raiding member and still at initiate status, I get a sinking suspicion I won’t be raiding.
So I stick around either way and the invites go out with everyone who signed up getting picked up into a 27 man raiding group. There’s some hemming and hawwing over what’s going to be done for the night, whether or not we’re going to raid ICC still or maybe do an older 25 man in order to get others better gear. During the course of the discussion they mention that it would be nice to have an extra healer.
Now the previous night I had been in a spectacularly fail Ignis raid as a healer, trying to grab last week’s weekly raid before at the last minute. Sicne there were no other options, I had to go as heals then and even after all the time I was away from the healing train, I was somewhat surprised at how quickly and easily I fell back into the rhythm of it. So I went ahead and offered up my healing services if it would make things easier to get the groups going.
I didn’t get an exact answer back right away and eventually calls went out for all people below raiding status to roll 100 and the lowes scores would be asked to leave. I immediately roll a six and prepare to call it a night when I’m told that, as a healer, I have an automatic in and won’t be asked to leave. So once more I donned my holy hat and made with the life bars.
Things went well the rest of the evening with us coasting through the first wing, only wiping once on Saurfang and even one-shotting Festergut with a textbook attempt. I was able to go to shadow for two of the fights, so I really filled the role of swing healer/dps where necessary. At the end of the night I was rewarded with enough new frost emblems from the weekly that I could finally afford my first piece of t10 gear. But then the indecision set in.
I realized that if I had gone heals this evening, it’s most likely I would have to do so in the future. Not to mention that as I was healing in ICC 10 (which was surprisingly easy compared to Ulduar), I felt that familiar twinge that came with being a raid healer. The joy of seeing my power auras popping on and off coldown and my heals critting like nobody’s business was exhilerating again.
But was I ready to stop this crazy shadow experiment? Could I simply turn away from all the time and gold (and trust me, it was a lot of gold) I had spent optimizing my gear for dps instead of heals? When I asked our GL, she informed me that they needed heals for ten mans and ranged dps for twenty fives, so either one would be beneficial. Truth be told, I wasn’t really blowing anyone away with my dps and I was only barely grasping the role as a ranged raider, so it wasn’t like the guild would miss my shadow deeps.
In the end I decided to wait until I had 95 badges so I could upgrade my robe (which definitely needs it), but I’m still a little rattled at how close I came to simply ditching shadow and returning to the raid healing role. Am I ready to be deeps with that kind of attitude? For the moment I’m shadow and I’m going to give it a few more weeks still, but I hope to have this decision wrapped up before I get my first t10 piece.
So waddya think, gentle jerkwad? Should I drop shadow and return to my silly old healing ways? If there’s anything I learned last night it was that I haven’t really lost a step as far as raid healing goes, and I’m defintiely a better healer than I am dps at the moment. But then again… pew pew, mofos?